Melissa
A Fragmented Story
I need to grieve. But I don’t know what to grieve or how. The grief is a constant ache in my chest, a fixture so permanent that I can’t...
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Melissa
- Jun 12, 2022
- 1 min
What Would Newton Say?
The person at my elbow is talking about Shavuos. I do a double take. Wait. Is Shavuos gonna be, or was it Shavuos already? Oh, it was....
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Melissa
- May 29, 2022
- 2 min
Lost
I woke up in a haze; I’d been in one all weekend. But I knew I was equipped. I’d get out as soon as I was ready. I dug into my toolbox...
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Melissa
- May 26, 2022
- 2 min
Vow of Silence
At one point, many years ago, I needed to guard the little sense of self I had left. So I took upon myself an oath of silence. The less...
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Melissa
- May 15, 2022
- 1 min
Where’s the Rulebook?
The problem with me is that I don’t know how to do life. Despite the months and months (and months and months) of therapy, I still don’t...
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Melissa
- May 12, 2022
- 1 min
House of Horrors
There are parts of my past that I just don’t feel like visiting. Just the thought of doing so haunts me. It’s pitch black in there with...
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Melissa
- Apr 29, 2022
- 1 min
Unfilled
You open up a well of need A void in which deep yearning breeds Searing pain that makes me choke As I inhale burning, acrid smoke A chasm...
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Melissa
- Apr 11, 2022
- 2 min
This Is the Hole
This is the hole. This formless, nameless, colorless chasm of fog. It’s a longing for something that doesn’t exist. It’s being homesick...
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Melissa
- Mar 27, 2022
- 2 min
Pseudo-Adult
With every piece of validation I receive, every bit of understanding of what happened, there’s a painful reality to accept. And so...
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Melissa
- Mar 24, 2022
- 1 min
Floppy Doll
I’m a floppy doll with no spine. A rag doll with no core. I can’t stay upright. I need to be propped up and then supported. Let go, send...
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Melissa
- Mar 13, 2022
- 1 min
Morbid Mournings
My brain is a morgue. Hollow and deathly quiet. Nothingness echoing against the walls of my skulls in an eerie, barely audible whisper of...
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Melissa
- Feb 27, 2022
- 3 min
Face at the Window
Alone in the room, curtains fluttering over smudged window panes. I retreat deeper into myself so I shouldn’t see it: the dark, the dust,...
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Melissa
- Feb 24, 2022
- 2 min
Mystery Pain
To think that once upon a time, not too long ago, I thought of pain as a migraine headache, an excruciating toothache, labor contractions...
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Melissa
- Feb 16, 2022
- 1 min
In Shambles
My house is in shambles. And so am I. So is my spirit. So is my motivation. So is my heart. So is my exhausted brain. So are each of the...
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Melissa
- Feb 8, 2022
- 2 min
Hail to the Warriors
Once upon a time I was invincible. I pulled all nighters. I'd smugly tell those 11:00 pumpkins, “Oh, the night is yet young," or “T’is...
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Melissa
- Jan 25, 2022
- 2 min
Fill 'Er Up
With thanks to Dr. Seuss and Sam This it is. This it is. It is this. That dark abyss. That black abyss. I do not like it; an abyss it is....
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Melissa
- Jan 24, 2022
- 1 min
Stunted
Once upon a time, still enwrapped in the innocence of youth I believed I could grow, blossom. Even beautify the world with my existence....
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Melissa
- Jan 23, 2022
- 2 min
Nothingness
There’s a heart-sized hole in the hollow of my chest. I want to reach out to it, to touch it, to soothe it, but all I feel is black...
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Melissa
- Jan 23, 2022
- 2 min
Good Sign or Bad Sign?
If my chest isn’t a war-torn battlefield with gunshots ripping right through my innards in painful blasts, is it good news or bad news?...
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Melissa
- Jan 20, 2022
- 1 min
O Captain (a spoof)
I love using familiar rhythms to make sense of my life. To sing my song in a familiar tune, especially something historical that touched...
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