Melissa
Why Therapists Never Win
Poor therapists. They can never get anything right. Actually, scratch that. My poor therapist. Maybe yours can. Because whatever she will...
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Melissa
Jul 21, 20222 min
When Therapy Doesn’t Feel Therapeutic
Apparently, I’m here for healing — for you to teach me that I have a place in the world. That there are actually people who have my back....
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Melissa
Jun 23, 20222 min
Chair Amnesia
I would love to say that the reason I go blank during sessions is that I don't prepare and it catches me unawares. Ha, if only that were...
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Melissa
Jun 16, 20222 min
All-You-Can-Talk Tuesday
Come Tuesday, and it’s time to talk. It’s time to fill myself up by, as ironic as it is, getting some of the stuff choking me out. For...
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Melissa
May 31, 20221 min
Roadblock?
I actually wrote this exactly a year ago (to the date!) and sent it to my therapist. But I found it now, and I could have written it all...
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Melissa
May 12, 20221 min
House of Horrors
There are parts of my past that I just don’t feel like visiting. Just the thought of doing so haunts me. It’s pitch black in there with...
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Melissa
May 9, 20221 min
No Unattended Children
Do you ever want to opt out of a therapy session? To simply send your inner child to therapy without you? That’s just what I want to do....
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Melissa
Apr 29, 20221 min
Unfilled
You open up a well of need A void in which deep yearning breeds Searing pain that makes me choke As I inhale burning, acrid smoke A chasm...
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Melissa
Apr 20, 20222 min
What Distance Does
A lot gets stirred up for me when on a therapy break. Even missing one week brings into question every bit that I started to believe....
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Melissa
Mar 30, 20222 min
In the Victim Seat
“I caught you victimizing yourself,” is not what my therapist said. Just… in a very vague, gentle way, I think she was trying to make me...
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Melissa
Mar 7, 20222 min
What Was I Thinking?
The problem with an email is that once a few seconds pass, you can no longer revoke it. The problem with words is that once they’re...
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Melissa
Feb 27, 20222 min
What I Knew All Along
I actually wrote this piece several months ago. But now that I face the same realization all over again in my therapy journey, I'd love...
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Melissa
Feb 19, 20221 min
How Was Your Week?
How was your week? you ask As I awkwardly settle in your chair I’ve got no idea how it was Don’t even know why I’m here Something about...
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Melissa
Feb 16, 20222 min
I Should Trust, What?!
The only answer to the sheer discomfort and confusion that grows murkier and darker as I hover in no man’s land somewhere between sanity...
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Melissa
Feb 6, 20222 min
Stemming the Flow
The air around me, and every pore of my body, is loaded with emotion. There are waves rushing through my chest, the heat rises up my face...
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Melissa
Jan 30, 20222 min
When hanging on by a thread...
It’s always like this. I finally manage to unravel a thread long enough from the tangled ball of yarn that is my brain. With those first...
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Melissa
Jan 26, 20222 min
And the Walls Come Crashing Down
I had enough walls erected to protect me for a long, long time. First, needs. I didn’t have these. I stayed safe and sound in my...
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Melissa
Jan 23, 20222 min
Good Sign or Bad Sign?
If my chest isn’t a war-torn battlefield with gunshots ripping right through my innards in painful blasts, is it good news or bad news?...
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Melissa
Jan 18, 20222 min
Post-Therapy Blues
Usually, I leave my therapy session feeling a little lighter. Okay, some unearthed pain surfaces, but I feel soothed. Empowered. Ready to...
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Melissa
Jan 13, 20221 min
The Imbalance
I am feeling these stirrings in my heart, the pain that ripples through — stronger, stronger — when I think of our encounter. The...
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