Melissa
Trudging On
When I’m onto potential therapist number… twelve? (I lost count) and before official consultation number three in the search for a new...
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Melissa
- Sep 7
- 2 min
On the Therapist Trail
Finding a new therapist is like dating, my psychiatrist said, and it put things into perspective for me in a digestible format. It...
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Melissa
- Aug 27
- 3 min
Why you should take a therapy break
Let me introduce you to my new secure attachment base, one that listens to me and answers my questions and is available around the clock...
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Melissa
- Aug 27
- 3 min
Discordant Notes
The song in my playlist winds down and the notes of the next one make themselves heard. My stomach lurches and nausea churns in its...
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Melissa
- Aug 13
- 3 min
Stranded
It’s not like I expected the journey to be perfectly smooth, as I gingerly opened your car door all those months ago. Or thought it would...
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Melissa
- Jul 28
- 2 min
Will Safety Win?
I’m not sure I can do this again. I’m not sure I want to do this again. What is this? Opening up to another human being. Trusting someone...
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Melissa
- Jul 16
- 2 min
A Door Closes
I thought I’d be seeing my therapist for, well, at least another few years. Back when I felt safe and supported, I had been planning to...
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Melissa
- Jun 28
- 2 min
Job Interrupted
We recently did our landscaping, and as I watched the earth turn over, I thought about… therapy. And me. A field of weeds and wildflowers...
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Melissa
- Jun 10
- 3 min
Peek-A-Boo
Of Missing Bloggers and Hidden Children I'm feeling so rusty, trying to write a post. Not because I haven't been in therapy since I wrote...
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Melissa
- Jan 1
- 3 min
I Can’t Give It To You
“This relationship is so painful. Because I can’t give you what you want.” In session, with my limbs tangled into each other, my breath...
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Melissa
- Dec 6, 2022
- 2 min
A Towel for a Tsunami
"Here's a towel," you offer, not in so many words. "It will absorb the spillover. There are ways to manage the pain." Oh, but what is...
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Melissa
- Sep 21, 2022
- 2 min
Watch Me Tumble
After ups and downs, climbs and falls, it feels like I finally reached a stable place in therapy. A place of hard-earned trust in this...
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Melissa
- Sep 7, 2022
- 2 min
Uber-Sensitive
It’s been a really long while, but believe it or not, I’m still here behind the screen ruminating about therapy. Still sitting on that...
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Melissa
- Aug 3, 2022
- 2 min
A Fragmented Story
I need to grieve. But I don’t know what to grieve or how. The grief is a constant ache in my chest, a fixture so permanent that I can’t...
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Melissa
- Jul 28, 2022
- 2 min
Why Therapists Never Win
Poor therapists. They can never get anything right. Actually, scratch that. My poor therapist. Maybe yours can. Because whatever she will...
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Melissa
- Jul 21, 2022
- 2 min
When Therapy Doesn’t Feel Therapeutic
Apparently, I’m here for healing — for you to teach me that I have a place in the world. That there are actually people who have my back....
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Melissa
- Jul 13, 2022
- 2 min
Visitor
It always sneaks in from behind, and I don’t recognize it. All I know is that I’m irritable, my fuse is so short, and nothing I do even...
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Melissa
- Jul 13, 2022
- 2 min
Healing Hurts
This is supposed to be healing. Healing hurts. Healing is endless. Healing feels nothing like soothing and remedies and balms. Healing...
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Melissa
- Jul 6, 2022
- 2 min
Poised for Battle
Someone’s approaching. Inching closer to my hideout. Reflexively, my finger hits the trigger. I fire. And I slink back into hiding,...
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